Today, I sent the e-mail to my Gardian. She used to be my Gardian not any more.
I asked about her to have money buck from my host family, because I over paid them.
My Gardian said that "Is it better to let it go."

I thought so too, I wish I could forget about them. But if I accept over paid money, doesn't it mean that I accept to be a thief?

My gardian thinks i am sick as my host family asked me to pay money buck. Maybe I am. That's why I had to leave that house.

It was my fault.

But I can't let that happen again. Thing happens to teach me something. Didn't I lern anything from that exept being sorry myself?

I sould move on. i felt so sad and dissapointed myself. I can not continue goot relationship to anyone.
They dissapointed too.
I should not let anyone down anymore. Be honest, kind and strong.
I don't wantn to hart anone. But maybe I have hurt so many people without noticing.
I have to move on.